This is an article by J.D. Greear published on Relevant Magazine:
I emerged from seminary with one goal as a pastor: to grow a great big church with big conversion numbers and a big budget, and—to be honest—hopes of even bigger attention for the guy behind it all.
Like most young pastors, I thought I was doing God’s work. Isn’t “big” what He wants?
It took me a while to realize that my self-centered ambition was blinding me to God’s true purpose for my church. I was missing out on something—my church was missing out on something—but we didn’t even realize it.